today, i was bored whole day… there is nothing spaciel
and yea, tomorrow is my birthday but i cant go anywhere
just becuz i had no money to spend !… mom and dad didnt allow me to hang out with friend also
and thats what i wanna know the reason, sometime i thought dat dis yr might be ma happy yr, but its not
i jst wanna spend time with friends cuz sum of ma friends are gonna leave Thailand and skool soon, but i still care bout mom and dad
it was not the same as last yr, maybe i grew up already 
sum ppl gave me congratulatory speech today and i didnt care if they might remembered it wrong… jst say it, thats enough … at least, its nearly to 23 so much
….i just upset with mom’s word lil bit, cuz i wanna know bout my day tomorrow but seems like she didnt care much 
….. maybe she cared but .. as i told you guys, i wanna spend tym with ma friends ;P
again , hurrrrrrr why i was feeling like nomore happiness in this world ! . i still dont know also .. i dont even know wot does it mean when ppl say “WOW ! IM REALLY HAPPY”
i jst dunno dat feelin ………. aite ! dis’s fuckin nearly to X mas day already, and i think most of ppl decide to go anywhere wit friends or GF BF, but i decide to stay home ;(
it was not dont wanna go, but in fact, i cant go …. thats all .. WHAT IS HAPPENIN WITH MY LIFE ?
WHEN WOULD I CAN ADJUST MYSELF WITH EVERYTHIN ?? …
